I had a realization this week. Well, it's been coming on for a while, but I think it just clicked this week. Guess what?!? No one is perfect. I mean, that "all have sinned" thing is true!! Yeah, yeah, I've always known that. But, I didn't know that it applied to moms too. I have this tendency to think that I'm the only one struggling and that everyone else has it all together. I'm the only one who yells. I'm the only one who loses it. I'm the only one who wants to hide in the closet. I'm the only one who feels inadequate. I think that we, as Southerners, sometimes do each other a disservice putting on a "I have it all together" mask. Because, guess what, people believe it!!
I am doing a Bible study, through BSF(Bible Study Fellowship), on the acts of the apostles. One of the things my lecturer said, is to ask God to help you see yourself as He does. She said "you are more deeply flawed, but you are also more deeply loved." So, I did. I asked God to show me how He and other people see me. Guys, don't ask God for that unless you are ready to see it. Seriously!! You might not want to know. I won't go into everything I saw, because oh my goodness, no one will want to hang out with me.
And, it has also helped me see that other people are struggling too.
Okay, this has been stream of consciousness, and I don't know what point I was trying to make.
How about, moms (and dads), God has placed your children with the perfect parents for them. Give yourselves a break. Pray; read your Bible; have your quiet time with God; trust God; trust yourself. Then, love your children the best way you know how.
So true and so encouraging to read. You're a great mom, and I've known you a long time! I feel like I have seen a whole new side of myself here, most of it not good. But He has told me this is so I can know more deeply how inexhaustible and unfathomable His love is. Wish I could BSF w/you!
ReplyDeletegreat post. i love it when people are real. we do our best, but we are not perfect.
ReplyDeletei'm hoping to do bsf in the fall!